Thoughts of Laughter, Tears of Pain

Thoughts of laughter, tears of pain;
Sometimes you have to lose to know what you can gain.

Sitting on my favorite dock,
Watching the waves crash on a nearby rock.


He taught me pain.
He taught me joy.
He taught me frustration.
He taught me forgiveness.
He taught me to do as I wish,
And even how to catch a fish.


My dad knew not the word perfection,
But he never stopped attempting correction.
I was swept away by his never-ending affection.
He was always there when I needed direction.


I know not why the Lord chose to take him;
But my Dad is gone, and He's not mistaken.
As he has passed on and left me to weep,
I know his burdens I must not reap.


Through my grievance, I find peace
In knowing my father is now diseased.
You see, I have not lost but gained.
For in me Christ Jesus, my lord, reigns.


In strength, understanding and faith I grow.
He has reasons I do not know. 
In His greatness He will soon show
Some of the reasons my dad had to go.


From the earth my daddy goes
But in my heart, his spirit grows.


As I think of the memories and blink back my tears,
I know God will see me through the following years.


Thoughts of laughter, tears of pain;
Sometimes you have to lose to know what you can gain.

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I Forgive

I Forgive

I forgive my father, sister, spouse, friends and mother.
If I had one, I'd even forgive my brother.

For me, forgiving other people is easy as can be.
So why then the struggle when that person is me?

Someone infamous once said, "we are our own worst critics".
I'd have to agree, though I hate to admit it.

Self pitty, false pride, shame and guilt knaw at my inner core.
To think, act or even care is a gigantic chore.

Self-inflicted mental abuse; so quickly it smothers.
I must forgive myself as I forgive others.

Butterfly

Butterfly
Butterfly, Butterfly why are you here?
The last time I knew you, it was last year.
How did you escape from my sturdy box?
Pride and selfishness made tight the locks.
Flittering and fluttering about inside,
You have brought back all I once tried to hide.
How did I forget the value of love;
A blessing that grows and comes from above.
Without it one's life becomes ragged and cold.
Love's precious gift cannot be sold.
Nor is it a treasure that can be bought.
There's always lessons to be taught.
Thank you kind Butterfly, you have done well.
Now I know the message I must tell
To the one I love most in this world;
One for whom my whole life I have curled.
He, in his hands, holds the keys to your box.
One simple thought of him opens the locks.
Now fly away Butterfly and depart.
Thank you again for warming my heart.
But come again soon, in case I forget;
When I am troubled and filled with regret.

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Two Golden Stars

Two Golden Stars

One golden star has fallen; yet so many still remain.
Each golden star so different; no two ever the same

My brightest star has fallen; and so have countless tears.
This lighted childhood dimming through the passing years.

And then my world takes a turn; a rotation you might say.
A new light invades the darkness, turning white what was gray.
Another star comes into view to be my joy and light my way.

I look to the heavens; the creater of it all I find.
I thank Him for the blessings; for the stars ahead and behind.
From both He's taught me strength, though a different kind.
Through them He's given me light where I'd otherwise be blind.

I glance back at my fallen golden star to say, "I miss you Daddy."
I look ahead to my new golden star to say, "I love you Danny".

So again, I thank you Jesus for the ways you light my life;
Placing stars where needed, to lessen my strife.

Please help me to remember to always look up and see
The brightly lit stars you've placed there just for me.

And when I forget, remind me; One golden star has fallen, yes; but many yet remain.
Each golden star so different; no two ever the same.

Love is Patient

Love is Patient


Where or where can my man be?

Who is it my Lord keeps from me?

I can’t help but wonder where or when

I will meet my everlasting friend.

I have for so long been patient, so

for how much longer, I do not know.

I will wait , continue to grow

and pray the time passage is not too slow.

There is a reason I am kept pure.

Someday someone will fall victim of my lure.

So honey I wait, for it may be you

that will hold my hand as I say "I do."

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres

1 Corinthians 13:4

Jesus is my Savior

Jesus is my Savior

Jesus is my savior, Jesus is my lord.

When I'm feeling down in the dumps,

or if I'm just plain bored,

he'll always be right by my side

to be a friend and a guide.

He can show me sunshine

on a dark and stormy night;

for He'll always put out a rainbow

to make everything feel all right.

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